reminiscence.

Setbacks

2011-10-24T11:30:00.002+08:00

You've had some bad outcomes; we all get bad outcomes. Your problem is, you let it get to you and now, you're scared. The only thing worse than a bad surgeon is a scared one.

- Grey's Anatomy, S08E06.

Free Falling

2011-10-07T23:12:00.002+08:00

Do you have what it takes?
...
When the ground gives way and your world collapses, maybe you just need to have faith and trust that you can survive this together. Maybe you just need to hold on tight and no matter what, don't let go.

- Grey's Anatomy, S08E01

Whatever You're Doing

2011-08-30T13:11:00.002+08:00

It's time for healing, time to move on

It's time to fix what's been broken too long

Time to make right what has been wrong

It's time to find my way to where I belong

There's a wave that's crashing over me

And all I can do is surrender

Whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace

It's hard to surrender to what I can't see

But I'm giving in to something Heavenly

Time for a milestone, time to begin again

Re-evaluate who I really am

Am I doing everything to follow Your will

Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills?

So show me what it is You want from me

I give everything, I surrender

To whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace

And though it's hard to surrender to what I can't see

I'm giving in to something Heavenly, something Heavenly

Time to face up, clean this old house

Time to breathe in and let everything out

That I wanted to say for so many years

Time to release all my held back tears

Whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos but I believe

You're up to something bigger than me

Larger than life, something Heavenly

Whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos but now I can see

This is something bigger than me

Larger than life, something Heavenly,

something Heavenly...

It's time to face up, clean this old house

Time to breathe in and let everything out

Beholding Your beauty

2011-08-16T11:15:00.004+08:00

Psalm 27:4-5,8

4 One thing I have asked from the LORD, that I shall seek:

That I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life,

To behold the beauty of the LORD

And to meditate in His temple.

5 For in the day of trouble He will conceal me in His tabernacle;

In the secret place of His tent He will hide me;

He will lift me up on a rock.

8 When You said, “Seek My face,” my heart said to You,

“Your face, O LORD, I shall seek.”

Destiny

2011-08-15T11:22:00.004+08:00

Jenny, I don't know if Momma was right or if, if it's Lieutenant Dan. I don't know if we each have a destiny, or if we're all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze, but I, I think maybe it's both. Maybe both is happening at the same time.

- Forrest Gump

One thing.

2011-08-04T12:09:00.003+08:00

Luke 10:42
"...but only one thing is necessary, for Mary has chosen the good part, which shall not be taken away from her.”

When You said that, I'm sure You knew what You were saying. And when You said only one thing is necessary, You meant, only one thing is necessary.

medicine.

2011-07-21T17:14:00.001+08:00

alien...

2011-07-16T23:19:00.006+08:00

That's what I feel like now; all that I thought I needed, I now realise I don't.

Tragic

The trouble that comes with replacing my IC, Driving License, Debit Card and even the debts that I've landed myself into in the process of losing my wallet, is a hefty price to pay to learn something new about myself; I don't need a wallet to feel complete.

I hate the fact that I didn't need to go through all this trouble just to learn that. But I've come to realise that there are probably a lot more things in my life that I don't mind losing. And if I do, then I might learn more things about myself that I never thought I'd learn.

At least not now.

Heh.

2011-06-29T14:01:00.002+08:00

For Good

2011-06-16T10:33:00.002+08:00

Elphaba:

I'm limited
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
For both of us - now it's up to you...

Glinda:

I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

Elphaba:

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you

Glinda:

Because I knew you

Both:

I have been changed for good

Elphaba:

And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the thing I've done you blame me for

(Glinda) But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

Both:

And none of it seems to matter anymore

Glinda:

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood

Elphaba:

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood

Both:

Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better

Glinda:

And because I knew you...

Elphaba:

Because I knew you...

Both:

Because I knew you...
I have been changed for good.

Fatherhood and sonship

2011-06-03T22:56:00.009+08:00

You have forgotten who you are and so have forgotten me.

Look inside yourself, Simba.

You are more than what you have become.

...

Remember who you are...

You are my son.

two cents.

2011-06-03T20:43:00.002+08:00

what people really need, is Christians to love the hell out of them.

literally.

Intimacy

2011-05-03T09:20:00.007+08:00

It is possible for us to engage with the person of the Holy Spirit so that we can be used in ministry, instead of engaging the person of the Holy Spirit because we want deep relationship.

If you want to engage with the Holy Spirit because you want to, merely, be effective in ministry, then you are developing professional intimacy.

And what do we call people who are intimate as a profession?

...

What we want, is the lifestyle of the miraculous, the lifestyle of the kingdom; miracles are an expression of the kingdom, we want the lifestyle of the kingdom to emanate from the yielded life. This relationship that we have with the Holy Spirit is central to learning this life of miracles.

- Bill Johnson, Healing Out of Intimacy.

New beginnings

2011-05-02T23:11:00.004+08:00

This is Samuel, aka Sneow.

Have a good time in NS.

Be a good boy.

Bring the Light to the darkness.

Move faster; don't take your time.

Hope you enjoyed the attention you received in town today.

reckless abandon

2011-04-09T17:38:00.004+08:00

Forsaking it all,

A fool for You, I will be;

Reckless abandon.

More...

2011-04-07T21:30:00.004+08:00

Help me...

to see the world through Your eyes

to live my life in accordance to the Truth

to forsake every earthly pleasure for what truly satisfies

to grow into the likeness of Jesus Christ

... amen.

The Renewed Mind

2011-04-06T22:36:00.001+08:00

You know your mind is renewed when the impossible looks logical. The most consistent way to display the kingdom of God is through the renewed mind. It is much more than thinking right thoughts. It is how we think - from what perspective. Done correctly, we are to "reason" from heaven toward Earth.

- Bill Johnson, Face To Face With God.

Metamorphosis

2011-04-02T00:34:00.005+08:00

2011-03-21T12:54:00.002+08:00

^{Isaiah 354}Say to those with anxious heart,
"Take courage, fear not
Behold, your God will come with vengeance;
The recompense of God will come,
But He will save you."
⁵Then the eyes of the blind will be opened
And the ears of the deaf will be unstopped.
⁶Then the lame will leap like a deer,
And the tongue of the mute will shout for joy
For waters will break forth in the wilderness
And streams in the Arabah.
⁷The scorched land will become a pool
And the thirsty ground springs of water;
In the haunt of jackals, its resting place,
Grass becomes reeds and rushes.

The realm of the miraculous is waiting for the stewardship of the knowledge of God put into decrees that are proclaimed over each other. Those decrees and proclamations actually attract the invasion of the miraculous.

- Bill Johnson, The Real Jesus.

my cry

2011-03-20T23:43:00.002+08:00

Christ be in my mind

in all my thoughts

Christ be on my lips

in all I say

Christ be in my heart

in all I do

Christ be in my being

Consume me

Timor Leste

2011-03-04T10:29:00.002+08:00

You're the God of this city

You're the king of this people

You're the hope of this nation

You are

Choices

2011-01-18T18:25:00.000+08:00

nice.

2010-12-09T19:04:00.000+08:00

Genesis.

2010-11-07T00:10:00.002+08:00

I was baptized today.

I don't quite have the words to describe this spiritual milestone.

But beneath what is seen on the outside, the journey that God has brought me through thus far, carries a much deeper meaning than the hype that took place today.

Not that the hype doesn't matter, oh it does, it is so crucial to my life.

That being said.. I'm grateful for a faithful Father.

tussle.

2010-10-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

"Mitch, I know it hurts when you can't be with someone you love. But you need to be at peace with his desires. Maybe he doesn't want you interrupting your life. Maybe he can't deal with that burden..."

But he's my brother, I said.

"I know," Morrie said. "That's why it hurts."

- Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie.

old friend.

2010-10-25T21:46:00.006+08:00

It was secondary two, we were all waiting for the presentation to begin.

My lit teacher had given us an assignment - to prepare a short skit on any scene from our literature text, The Outsiders.

The presentation went on, after a few groups presented their skit, the turn came to his group. I had always paid particular attention to this guy, I still remember his name up to this day, for reasons that were not exactly flattering.

Chan Yin Wai, my first friend in primary school because he was my senior buddy's best friend's younger buddy. He was also the only person whom I knew who would put ice into his Laksa gravy to cool it down, also the first one I witnessed spilling a whole bowl of piping hot Laksa onto his school uniform and crying after that. Not to mention, the guy who got so excited he pooped in his pants.

So he stepped up and took the stage. "We'll be doing the scene where the house caught fire." He had on his usual jestful smirk.

No one, other than his group mates, knew what was in store.

Everything seemed normal for a while, until the moment came; the house caught fire. The classroom seemed to have caught fire too. There were no signs of a sharp increase in temperature, nor a visual evidences of flames, but the classroom started to fill up with smoke.

There he was, at the corner of the class, swinging his hands wildly. With both hands clasped together, he held a giant bunch of Buddhist joss sticks.

Needless to say, he got it real bad from my lit teacher.

Cheers, old friend.

love.

2010-10-23T23:58:00.000+08:00

You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

- Stardust

with you i'm born again.

2010-10-21T21:45:00.000+08:00

Every cell in the human body regenerates on average, every 7 years. Like snakes, in our own way, we shed our skin. Biologically, we are brand, new people. We may look the same, we probably do, but change isn't visible...not in most of us, but we all change, completely, forever.

- Grey's Anatomy, S07E01.

Push.

2010-10-18T22:59:00.000+08:00

They take pictures of the mountain climbers at the top of the mountain. They are smiling, ecstatic, triumphant. They don’t take pictures along the way cause who wants to remember the rest of it? We push ourselves because we have to not because we like it. The relentless climb, the pain and anguish of taking it to the next level – nobody takes pictures of that, nobody wants to remember, we just want to remember the view from the top, the breathtaking moment at the edge of the world. That’s what keeps us climbing and it’s worth the pain, that’s the crazy part. It’s worth anything.

- Grey's Anatomy, S06E17.

fight. travail.

2010-10-17T21:23:00.003+08:00

You are better than this, I've seen you be better. Look, the way to win, the way to beat them, is to stop fighting them. You go get better. You be the man I've always known you to be. You be the chief. Be the chief.

- Grey's Anatomy, S06E13.

healing.

2010-10-16T22:49:00.004+08:00

In surgery, the healing process begins with a cut, an incision, the tearing of flesh. We have to damage the healthy flesh in order to expose the unhealthy. It feels cruel and against common sense, but it works. You risk exposure for the sake of healing. And when it's over, once the incision has been closed, you wait. You wait and you hope that your patient will heal, that you haven't in fact, just made everything worse.

- Grey's Anatomy, S06E12.

taciturn.

2010-10-14T01:38:00.004+08:00

Prayer of Thomas Merton

2010-10-12T23:30:00.001+08:00

My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and will never leave me to face my perils alone.

Invasion.

2010-10-11T23:13:00.001+08:00

When you get sick, it starts out with a single bacteria; one lone nasty intruder. Pretty soon, the intruder duplicates, becomes two. Then those two become four become eight. Then, before your body knows it, it's under attack. It's an invasion. The question for a doctor is, once the invaders have landed. Once they've taken over your body, how the hell do you get rid of them?

What do you do when the infection hits you, when it takes over? Do you do what your supposed to and take your medicine or do you learn to live with that thing and hope that somebody it goes away. Or do you just give up entirely and let it kill you.

- Grey's Anatomy, S06E05.

Now or Never.

2010-10-07T01:34:00.001+08:00

Did you say it? 'I love you. I don't ever want to live without you. You changed my life.' Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it, but every now and then, look around; Drink it in 'cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow.

- Grey's Anatomy, S05E24

Denial.

2010-10-06T14:36:00.002+08:00

Your hand is hard to hold.

delusive beguilement.

2010-10-02T23:39:00.003+08:00

Often, we change our behaviour when the pain of staying the same

becomes greater than the pain of changing.

Stairway To Heaven.

2010-10-02T14:10:00.003+08:00

I believe in heaven. I also believe in hell. I've never seen either but I believe they exist. They have to exist. Because without a heaven, without a hell, we're all just headed for limbo.
Heaven. Hell. Limbo. No-one even knows where we're going. Or what's waiting for us when we get there. But the one thing we can say, with absolute certainty, is that there are moments that take us to another place. Moments of Heaven on Earth. And maybe for now, that's all we need to know.

- Grey's Anatomy, S05E13.

dissonance.

2010-10-01T19:33:00.006+08:00

Izzie:
You can't do that. You can't just disappear.
I thought you were gone. I thought you had left me again.

Denny:
Izzie I told you I'm here for you.

Izzie:
No you're not; you died. You died and you left me here.
I was left here by myself. You left me all alone.

Denny:
You're not alone anymore.

Izzie:

Why? Why did you come back? I had moved on, I got over you.
I got a life, and a job, and a boyfriend. And now you're back.
And I'm in this room all day, probably talking to myself.
I'm probably going crazy and there is a real world out there
and I'm stuck in here with you.

Denny:
I'm sorry I died.

Izzie:
No. Screw you. You don't get to apologise for dying.
You don't get to apologise because I killed you.
And I killed you, so you don't get to apologise for dying.

ties that bind...

2010-10-01T00:17:00.002+08:00

The ties that binds us are sometimes impossible to explain. They connect us even after it seems like the ties should be broken. Some bonds defy distance and time and logic; Because some ties are simply... meant to be.

-Grey's Anatomy, S05E08.

not done... not yet.

2010-09-30T14:01:00.002+08:00

Dr. Katharine: Yes. Horrible things do happen.
Happiness in the face of all that, that's not the goal.
Feeling the horrible,
and knowing that you're not going to die from those feelings, that's the point.
And you're not done,
you've made progress because you're feeling and you're telling me about that.
Six months ago, it would've just been you and a bottle of tequila..
My door's always open.

- Grey's Anatomy, S05E03

where the wild things are.

2010-09-27T21:13:00.002+08:00

Richard: The contest is a lion fight. So, chin up, put your shoulders back, strut a little. Don't lick your wounds, celebrate them; the scars you bear are the sign of a competitor. You are in a lion fight, Stevens, just because you didn't win, doesn't mean you don't know how to roar.

- Grey's Anatomy, S04E12.

Soliloquy

2010-09-27T10:18:00.004+08:00

It is going to be okay.

Focus.

Stop looking back.

Focus.

You can't erase past mistakes.

Focus.

There's only one thing that matters.

Focus.

FOCUS.

sanctification.

2010-09-22T17:18:00.014+08:00

Eustace: I was afraid of his claws, I can tell you, but I was pretty nearly
desperate now. So I just lay flat down on my back and let him do it. The very
first tear he made was so deep that I thought it had gone right into my heart.
And when he began pulling the skin off, it hurt worse than anything I've ever
felt... Well, he peeled the beastly stuff right off - just as I thought I'd
done it myself the other three times, only they hadn't hurt - and there it was
lying on the grass: only ever so much thicker, and darker and more knobbly
looking than the others had been. And there was I as smooth and soft... Then he
caught hold of me... and threw me into the water. It smarted like anything but
only for a moment. After that it became perfectly delicious and as soon as I
started swimming and splashing I found that all the pain had gone from my arm.
And then I saw why. I'd turned into a boy again... After a bit the lion took me
out and dressed me... with his paws... in these new clothes I'm wearing.

- Chronicles of Narnia, Voyage of the Dawn Treader.

the other side.

2010-09-18T20:27:00.002+08:00

At some point maybe we accept the dream has become a nightmare. We tell ourselves the reality is better. We convince ourselves that its better if we never dream at all. But the strongest of us, the most determined of us, we hold on to the dream...or we find ourselves faced with a fresh dream we never considered. We awake to find ourselves, against all odds, feeling hopeful. And if we're lucky we realize, in the face of everything, in the face of life, the true dream is being able to dream.

- Grey's Anatomy, S03E23.

Memories

2010-09-16T18:26:00.000+08:00

Truth

2010-09-14T22:34:00.002+08:00

Jesus said I am the truth; truth is not a teaching, it is a person.

First of all, it is okay that you don't know something.
And secondly, the real question is, how bad do you want to find out?

- Furious Love, 2010.

Like Incense

2010-09-13T22:01:00.003+08:00

[Verse 1]
May my prayer like incense rise before You
The lifting of my hands as sacrifice
Oh Lord Jesus turn Your eyes upon me
For I know there is mercy in Your sight

Your statutes are my heritage forever
My heart is set on keeping Your decrees
Please still my anxious urge toward rebellion
Let Love keep my will upon its knees

[Chorus]
Oh God, You are my God
And I will ever praise You
Oh God, You are my God
And I will ever praise You

[Verse 2]
To all creation I can see a limit
But Your commands are boundless and have none
So Your Word is my joy and meditation
From the rising to the setting of the sun

All Your ways are loving and are faithful
The road is narrow but Your burden light
Because You gladly lean to lead the humble
I shall gladly kneel to leave my pride

[Bridge]
I will seek You in the morning
I will learn to walk in Your ways
And step by step You'll lead me
And I will follow You all of my days

Walking on Water

2010-09-06T21:15:00.002+08:00

Meredith: Do you ever feel like you're disappearing?
Izzie: All the time?
Meredith: Why can't I be that happily ever after person? Why can't I just believe in that?
Izzie: I don't know what I believe in anymore.

Grey's Anatomy, S03E15.

Distance

2010-08-30T22:01:00.004+08:00

At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.

- Grey's Anatomy, S03E10.

Sometimes a Fantasy

2010-08-24T21:57:00.006+08:00

Derek: ... the pathway to the two sides has been compromised, he needs to make new pathways.
Leann: How long is it going to take?
Derek: Well he'll get there, it'll come from his hard work. It's a learning process. You need to be patient. You need to help him. He can't do this without your support.

- Grey's Anatomy, S03E03

Bailey: everybody wants a life without pain, what does it get you? She needs to be on a poster somewhere; to remind people that pain is there for a reason.

- Grey's Anatomy, S03E03

The Serenity Prayer

2010-08-19T11:09:00.002+08:00

God, grant me the...
Serenity to accept things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can, and the
Wisdom to know the difference
Patience for the things that take time
Appreciation for all that I have, and
Tolerance for those with different struggles
Freedom to live beyond the limitations of my past ways, the
Ability to feel Your love for me and everyone's love for each other and the
Strength to get up and try again even when we feel it is hopeless.

Amen.

Asystole

2010-08-07T00:08:00.002+08:00

Hating you is the most exhausting.

Surgery

2010-08-05T19:48:00.002+08:00

They say practice makes perfect.
Theory is, the more you think like a surgeon,
The more you become one.
The better you get at being neutral, clinical.
Cut, suture, close.
And the harder it becomes to turn it off;
To stop thinking like a surgeon.

- Grey's Anatomy, S02E01

Lines and boundaries

2010-08-02T17:55:00.005+08:00

At some point, you have to make a decision
Boundaries don't keep other people out; they fence you in
Life is messy; that's how we're made
So you can waste your life drawing lines
Or you can live your life crossing them
But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross
Here's what I know:
If you're willing to take the chance
The view from the other side is spectacular

- Grey's Anatomy, S01E02

Charlie St. Cloud

2010-07-26T09:21:00.002+08:00

The more I'm in your world, the less I can be in his...

We'll always be brothers.

While shopping...

2010-07-25T22:00:00.002+08:00

Me: Kor, that friend of mine is your age and she's about to get married... That was her fiance.
Mum: What did you say?
Me: She's about to get married? She's kor's age?
Mum: But she looks pregnant!
Me: Oh, maybe she's married. I haven't spoken to her in ages.
Dad: No lah, the trend now is for people to get pregnant before marriage.
Me: Dad... My friend has good values okay... I'm sure she's not like that.
Dad: For the more advanced ones, they'll get pregnant, and their daughter will be the bridesmaid.

Well done Dad.

Prisoner Of Azkaban

2010-07-15T18:49:00.001+08:00

Sirius Black: ... But know this; the ones that love us never really leave us. And you can always find them in here.
[puts his hand to Harry's heart]

Light at the end of the tunnel

2010-07-11T23:10:00.003+08:00

Miracles

2010-07-05T18:25:00.002+08:00

Elle: Do you think that our love can create miracles?
Noah: Yes I do; that's what brings you back to me each time.
Elle: Do you think that our love could take us away together?
Noah: I think that our love could do anything we want it to.

Dream

2010-06-28T10:37:00.002+08:00

Let me keep on dreaming. I don't want to wake up to this nightmare.

Gleek

2010-06-27T15:55:00.001+08:00

Kurt's Dad: You're free to be whoever you are. Can you just let me know when you make up your mind? I'm going to do the best I can. But I'm good either way.

Total eclipse of the heart

2010-06-26T14:17:00.002+08:00

Rachel: I knew you'll break my heart

Jesse: That's the funny thing about reputations, everyone thinks I'm the big heart breaker. But... the fact of the matter is... You broke mine first.

I'm trying...

2010-06-24T00:53:00.001+08:00

All this has got to stop soon.

Take over

2010-06-19T23:16:00.001+08:00

I can't, You must.

Growth

2010-06-17T14:05:00.003+08:00

"The devil knows what stimulus to inject into your life to achieve a certain response from you. You know that you have grown when the devil throws that very stimulus at you, and you are able to respond in a different way that you would have in most situations."

Respect

2010-06-14T18:47:00.004+08:00

Do you remember when you were about 5 or 6, and you said you hated gravity? You wanted to jump off the roof and fly?

I was so mad at you for making me come down.

Honey, if I kept you too close, it is because I want to keep you longer.

- from 'A Walk To Remember'

Trials

2010-06-14T11:25:00.003+08:00

As you look back on your life, you'll find many trials that you've been through that you now laugh at.

If you think that in the future, you'll laugh at whatever you're going through now...

You might as well start laughing at it earlier.

Love

2010-06-14T11:18:00.000+08:00

Unfailing

2010-06-09T16:09:00.005+08:00

To love despite being hurt over and over again... When will love reach a limit?

Well... It doesn't.

But to all the trauma that it causes someone to love in that capacity, when will it cross the line where enough is enough?

To love in its purest form, would be to cross the line from the very beginning.

When will it become foolish? I mean, with all that hurt that one experiences? The damage it does to that person?

Love is foolish. And the hurt makes it all the more worth it.

If you want to be free...

2010-06-09T10:08:00.003+08:00

fly.

Trust

2010-06-08T23:27:00.007+08:00

Bitter Sweet

2010-06-03T13:29:00.006+08:00

"You've been hurt haven't you?"

"You're sharp. No one else has noticed."

"Is it regarding someone that you care about?"

"Yup. Someone I care about very much."

"You feel rejected?"

"Very. But I don't seem to be as beaten up as I should be."

"That's because you've grown."

silence

"Try loving with an open palm."

"What do you mean?"

"You give the freedom for the person you love to walk in and out of your life, as if you were holding on to the relationship with an open palm."

"Doesn't sound very easy."

"It isn't. If the person walks away, and never comes back, you know it was never meant to be."

silence

"But if that person comes back, the relationship remains forever."

Innocence

2010-06-02T22:49:00.006+08:00

I will not forget their smiles and the sincerity they carried with them. I loved the way they danced without worrying about how silly they look, or whether they actually got the steps right. Some of them passed really interesting statements though.

Me: So who is the youngest in your family?
Ashley: My kor kor...
Me: =)

Group Orange.
(From the top left) Jon Wong, Jacus Bea, Kyana, Sebastian, Ashley Wong, Ashlynn, Zacchaeus, Jacob, Aiden, Alvin, Isaac and Lucas.

Jon Wong is someone that Nicole describes as 'the guy who will grow up to be a rugger and a heartbreaker'. On the first day they were given hot dog buns for tea. Jon pulled out the sausage, finished it, left the bread on the table, smiled at me and said, "I'm full. =)"

Jacus Bea was the kid I never forgot since the day I met him at the playground with Nigel and Tessa. He has bouncy, bowl-shaped hair and an extremely cheeky laughter.

Sebastian was a wrestler. He scratched me.

This is Ashley.

He's amazing. I labeled him as 'the boy who would grow up to have a killer Korean actor look'. His smile would turn Medusa into candy. Today was the last day of the camp, along with the rest of the group members, I waited for the arrival of the remaining oranges who were not here yet. As I looked to the entrance of the chapel, a little head stuck out of the crowd. Then he walked up to me with a really sheepish smile, and handed me a card and a box of chocolates. The card read, "You are the best kor kor Clement." That, would keep me happy for about a month.

There are countless memories from the camp, but I just can't get all them down in words. Some of them are just better left unspoken because typing it out may just do injustice to the sentimental value to those experiences.

I'm fixing my eyes on You
Only You..

Farewell

2010-05-19T12:16:00.003+08:00

What legacy will you leave?
Have you made the best use of your choices?
Is there anything that you would change if you knew your life was going to end now?
Will you spend your time differently?
Would you tell those close to your heart how much you love them?

Another life has passed on, but the footprints will always remain.

Rest well, qx.

Only Believe

2010-05-01T12:15:00.002+08:00

"I am not moved by what I see.
I am moved only by what I believe.
I know this: no man looks at circumstances if he believes.
No man relies on his feelings if he believes."

Transformation

2010-04-22T22:32:00.005+08:00

We cannot be sure of having something to live for unless we are willing to die for it.

- Che Guavara

All that mattered had to be laid down.
It is time for an inner work to be done.
A deeper work is in progress.

Everything I once held dear
I count it all as loss

dear savannah

2010-04-08T17:51:00.007+08:00

I've been waiting to hear from you, to know if you've been going on strong like you usually would. I am glad to hear from you at last.

I was very busy preparing for Easter, so the busyness has simmered a little since then. But there still many things to do during this internship. I've been trying to keep my focus on God but the usual distractions are still there.

I do think of you now and then. When I do, I feel bad all over again. Because of that, I try my best not to allow my thoughts to go back there again. I have to get my focus right, I hope you understand.

Thank you for forgiving me. Thank you for drawing a distance between us for a period of time. I know that it must have been and probably still is so hard for you. But you did what was best for both of us.

Please don't become cynical towards love because of whatever that has happened. Please don't withdraw from it either.

I pray that you will not drown yourself in work or avoid your negative emotions, but you will soak yourself in the everlasting love of Daddy. That you will find back hope in Him again.

I am sorry.

a price to pay.

2010-03-12T00:54:00.003+08:00

"if only people would understand the price that has to be paid to live in the fullness of His power."

- Rev Jeff

what does it mean to live my life wholly unto You?
what would that look like?

dawn of a new beginning...

2010-03-05T23:39:00.009+08:00

"all stories, even the ones we love, must eventually come to an end.. and when they do, it only an opportunity for another story to begin..."

-from 'Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium'

it was the first time joining Nigel for an outreach activity.
there was this Indian boy that caught my attention...
it wasn't his dressing.
it wasn't his behaviour.
it was his hunger for love.

looking straight into his eyes, compassion welled up from within.
and as he threw his arms around me, i knew... i felt the heartbeat of God.
but i knew, there has to be so much more.

show me Your heart...

sorry.

2010-02-23T01:46:00.005+08:00

everything seemed so surreal;
the denial, the anguish and all that was taking place.

he felt like he had been hit in the head by a speeding train.

he messed up.

the first hold.

2010-01-15T13:03:00.004+08:00

Chapter 2

His hand reached towards hers. Their fingers interlocked each other.

It has been a while since he his hand had been held by another.

The moment was real.

And trace of a smile slowly crept upon his face.

and the story begins...

2010-01-12T00:59:00.005+08:00

Chapter 1

He looks into her eyes and gathers all his courage. "So.. I hope it isn't too soon for you. You needn't give me an answer by today either.. but.. will you be my girlfriend?"

She smiles and chuckles for a moment, then she looks away...

He knew what that meant.

Sample This!

2009-12-13T02:00:00.003+08:00

Simply beautiful.

A Call To Anguish.

2009-10-18T23:24:00.003+08:00

Compassion

2009-10-13T14:03:00.004+08:00

Compassion is sometimes the fatal capacity for feeling what it is like to live inside somebody else's skin. It is the knowledge that there can never really be any peace and joy for me until there is peace and joy finally for you too.

- Frederick Buechner

The Fragrant Spirit of Life

2009-09-17T18:41:00.002+08:00

there's so much more in this life that we ought to do.

You Hold Me Now

2009-09-09T23:50:00.003+08:00

On the day when I see
All that You have for me
When I see You face to face
There surrounded by Your grace

All my fears swept away
In the light of Your embrace
Where Your love is all I need
and forever I am free

Where the streets are made of gold
In Your presence healed and whole
Let the songs of heaven rise to You alone

No weeping
No hurt or pain
No suffering
You hold me now, You hold me now
No darkness
No sick or lame
No hiding
You hold me now, You hold me now

In this life I would stand
through my joy and my pain
Knowing there’s a greater day
There's a hope that never fades

Where Your name is lifted high
and forever praises rise
For the glory of Your name
I'm believing for the day

Where the wars and violence cease
All creation lives in peace
Let the songs of heaven rise to You alone

For eternity
All my heart will give
All the glory to Your Name (4x)

In the light of eternity...
life on earth seems so short...

yet this short time here...
will count for eternity..

and i will make it count.

faithful till the end..

2009-09-09T00:14:00.004+08:00

Psalm 139:1-3
1 O Lord, You have searched me and known me.
2 You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
You understand my thought from afar.
3 You scrutinize my path and my lying down,
And are intimately acquainted with all my ways.

c: hey bro.. how are you coping..?
r: Good...i feel a lot more peaceful than i thought i'd feel.

a peace beyond understanding.

that was the exact prayer.

then came worship.

You moved, again.

it wasn't the best of worships that i've had.

but You were faithful to Your promise again.

You never change.
You're still the same.
You are the everlasting God.
You will remain, after a day has gone,
and the things of earth have passed.
Everlasting God.

You never fail.

A story about Corwin

2009-08-31T14:30:00.001+08:00

Corwin's heart dropped.

The weight of his dad's words crushed him.

A barrage of thoughts raced through his mind.

Guess I'll never be good enough for you.

It wasn't long later that he was awoken by the vibrations of his handphone; it was Ray, the dear little one, calling.

Within an hour, he was standing next to the lifeless body of Ray's dad; he had gone home to be with the Lord.

the weight upon his shoulders doubled.

He watched on helplessly as Ray's family knelt around the corpse.

No words he could say would ease the pain.

Neither could any ease his pain.

What if the same thing happened to his dad?

What if he never got a chance to say goodbye...

Would he ever see his dad in heaven?

tears streamed down in an endless flow.

Special People

2009-08-28T01:55:00.001+08:00

When special people touch our lives then suddenly we see how beautiful and wonderful our world can be. They show us that our special hopes and dreams can take us far by helping us look inward and believe in who we are. They bless us with their love and joy through everything they give. When special people touch our lives they teach us how to live.

Does that reflect the kind of person you are to others?

John C Maxwell.

dreams.

2009-08-18T00:22:00.003+08:00

do not achieve your dreams by running, but by crawling on your knees.

dreams are important, but you've got to embrace the process which God's going to bring you through to get to your dreams as well.

embrace the process. on my knees. i'm glad i'm not alone in this.

i'm so grateful, Lord.

one day. i know. it'll happen.

μετάνοια

2009-07-22T22:39:00.004+08:00

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and the weight of the world fell on him. his face, covered in tears.

his handphone was vibrating. and as he glanced to it, his eyes lightened with hope. but he pushed it all away. there was no way he was going to spoil that special day for that dear one.

distraught, he cried himself to sleep.

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he broke down. as the shame of his darkest memories flashed before his eyes.

but something happened on the inside. strength arose.

this time, he knew it was going to be different.

he looked into the eyes of the greatly respected one.

i believe in you.

that was all he needed to hear.

its time. goodbye.

Faithful

2009-07-15T22:40:00.001+08:00

There's distance in the air and I cannot make it leave
I wave my arms round about me and blow with all my might
I cannot sense You close, though I know You're always here
But the comfort of You near is what I long for

When I can't feel You, I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear You, I know You still hear every word I pray
And I want You more than I wanna live another day
And as I wait for You maybe I'm made more faithful

All the folly of the past, though I know it is undone
I still feel the guilty one, still trying to make it right
So I whisper soft your name, let it roll around my tongue,
Knowing You're the only one who knows me
You know me

Show me how I should live this
Show me where I should walk
I count this world as loss to me
You are all I want
You are all I want

jon chan.

2009-07-14T22:16:00.004+08:00

| cLemon | says:
so how was your day?

whistlewhind whistful whishes; says:
it was alright!! hahahaha i passsed the test today i think!

whistlewhind whistful whishes; says:
anddd

whistlewhind whistful whishes; says:
i have been doodling into a doodlebook

| cLemon | says:
ooh?

whistlewhind whistful whishes; says:
anddd for dinner i had an upsized mcspicy meal with a healthy serving of two side double cheeseburgers.

well done.

sweet surrender.

2009-07-13T22:10:00.003+08:00

the art of losing myself in bringing You praise.

Psalm 32:7-8
7 You are my hiding place;
You preserve me from trouble;
You surround me with songs of deliverance.
Selah.
8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way which you should go;
I will counsel you with My eye upon you.

norm.

2009-06-29T16:48:00.003+08:00

Colossians 2:8
see to it that no one takes you captive through philosophy and empty deception, according to the tradition of men, according to the elementary principles of the world, rather than according to Christ.

for there to be a norm, there has to be a framework that defines a norm.
for something to be weird, it has to be outside the framework of what people define as normal.

the new "norm" is arriving.
its the "norm" which we haven't yet seen or recognised.

For God cannot be put in a grid.

love.

2009-06-17T01:58:00.001+08:00

happy times.

2009-06-15T10:19:00.004+08:00

if only life could just be full of moments like that. heh.

time to take a step back into the cave again.

Your will alone.

whoosh.

2009-06-01T20:48:00.001+08:00

(y)

hols are here!!! i can FINALLY SLEEP IN!!!